Soooo I had the most magical smelling mail day EVER yesterday! 

I got two of the most lovely, magical smelling packages in the mail yesterday! the first one was from scentsy. My warmer, wax bars, and car bars arrived. The second was from The Fizzy Filly. My custom order bath bombs, sugar scrubs and perfume. I will write two separate posts that go more into detail on the contents of the packages but I’m just so excited! I had to share. 

There’s also an ulterior motive for buying these things. Scent really does change my mood. When I smell something that reminds of a fun event I attended, like the Fizzy Filly things I got do, or places I love to go to with people I love, like a lot of the scentsy stuff I got did,  I just feel more at ease, less anxious. I’m hoping reminding myself of these things will help me get out of this funk I’ve been in lately. I’m planning to do a series of posts on what each scent is, what it reminds me of, and how it makes me feel as I use them so I can get myself remotivated with blogging. 

What do you guys think about this plan? 

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Perfume roulette

I have been kind of “keeping up” with my perfume roulette idea. “keeping up” in the sense that I have continued to wear a different perfume everyday, and kept notes on scent notes, how it wears, how the scent evolves through out the day, etc. I just haven’t ben posting much on here because I’ve been busy with this job, dealing with personal issue, and maintaining my 6 days a week workout schedule, all while still trying to have as much fun as possible. Being an adult and having these responsibilities and trying to balance is very stressful. I’m starting to fear I can’t keep my head above water much longer. I put so much pressure on myself to succeed, not just at this job, but also at working out and reestablishing myself as a makeup artist, that I just feel so overwhelmed. If you have any advice on how to deal with this stress, please leave a comment. We can chat and exchange tips on how to deal with it.

Anyway! Here’s some perfumes that I’ve been wearing recently and what I think about them.

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I am in this funk.

Ever since I started this new job a long three weeks ago, I have been very stressed out. Not because it’s a difficult job or anything like that; I actually feel like I’m getting the hang of it. However, I also feel like I’m letting other thing that were once so important and high priority to me fall by the wayside.

I skipped two workouts this week Up until this week, it had been months since I skipped a workout. I skipped two this week alone. I low key hate myself for it but I’m also trying not to be too hard on myself. This is what I meant in my last post about a constant struggle. I’ve been so down on myself lately and I just can’t get myself back up.

I have this list of creative projects that I want to get done this summer. I really think it’s a  lack of creative expression that has been majorly contributing to my recent depression. So I’m hoping working on these and getting them completed will help lift me back up to where I once was. I will definitely be updating on here as I make progress and complete  these projects.

One of the projects I am currently working on is taking all my wrestling pictures off my phone and printing them to make a mini scrapbook. To celebrate getting my job, I bought myself a polaroid printer that connects to my phone by blue tooth and prints phone pictures as little stickers. I’m having fun with it. Going through all these pictures brings back a lot of good memories. I am so glad I get to see some of my wrestling friends tomorrow!!

Do you guys even like these personal posts? Do you want more? Should I just stick to makeup? I’ve had so much on my mind lately and I thought this might be a good outlet. Let me know what you think!

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My adventures in weight loss land.

I want to talk about weight loss, dieting and working out. It’s constantly on my mind and I do it everyday so I thought it might be a good idea to share my struggles on here. I know weight and dieting are touchy subjects for some and I don’t mean to offend but this subject has just been weighing (no pun intended) so heavily on my mind.

This is going to be a long post. You’ve been warned.

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What’s in my shower?

I got this idea from a youtuber, GwenInRealLife, I found her while surfing youtube trying to fill the Lush shaped hole in my heart. I haven’t bought anything new from Lush since February or early March but I digress. Being a big fan of fun bath and shower things, I thought it would be fun to share the things I use regularly. I take showers more often than baths so I won’t be including bath bombs and bubble bars in this post.

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So after weeks of nothing…

I finally decided to wear makeup. Yesterday was my first day on the job unsupervised so I thought I would do an almost full face of makeup to give me a little confidence boost. If you want to know how I created this look, keep reading.


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Just a little life update

I know I’m always saying I want to/will blog more often but there’s a good reason as to why I haven’t been doing so lately. I am about two and a half weeks into this new job. Today will be my first day on the job without any supervision and I’m super anxious about it. Getting this job in general has caused a lot of anxiety and sadness for me. Not because it’s a difficult job or anything like that, but because it’s an “office job.” Ever since I was a child, I swore to myself that I would never get an “office job.” I am an artist. At the very core of my soul an artist is who I always have been, am, and always will be. I feel like by  taking this job, especially while being trained for it over the past two and a half weeks, my art has suffered. I can’t recall the last time I’ve worn a full face of makeup or even just sat down to paint on canvas.

This job has even been affecting my energy levels while working out. I love working out. Getting in shape is so important to me that I even upped my workouts to 6 days a week with a trainer. I’m hoping now that I’m done with training for this job and my schedule will be my regular 2pm-9pm now, I’ll be able to maintain better energy levels for working out.

If I keep reminding myself that this is not a career; it’s just a job I have to take to make my dream come true, I think I’ll be ok. I’m too creative to stay stagnant for too long.

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