My biggest regret in life.

I was in an abusive relationship for a year. That year ended with him hitch hiking from my hometown to where I currently reside, breaking into my apartment, beating me, and holding a knife to my throat while doing something else that I would rather not discus on the internet. All I got was a five year restraining order against him. At the time I didn’t think I could handle pressing charges against him. I had a major anxiety attack when I saw him in the court room for the restraining order. How could I handle testifying against him? Looking back on it now, not pressing charges and holding him accountable for his attack on me is my worst and biggest regret. What if he does this shit again to the next girl he dates? What if I could have stopped that by sending him to jail? I can’t stop thinking about this.
And then tonight I found out a friend of mine was attacked by his roommate and didn’t call the cops because my friend’s father convinced him “it would ruin his future.” Forget that! As far as I’m concerned, you ruin your future as soon as you lift a hand against anyone in an act of violence. Whatever promising future a person may have had is forfeit after they hit someone. It makes me angry. It makes angry because I don’t want to see people get away with such abuse. I don’t want to see my friends receive such abuse.
It’s a serious problem and people who abuse others should be held accountable and suffer the consequences.
I’m writing about this because, after almost a year and half, I finally feel ready to talk about it. I want others who are going through the same thing to know they’re not alone. I don’t want them to live with the same regret and guilt I feel now.

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