I’m sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I’d say missing one day so far is pretty good but I’ve been having a really hard time with adjusting to living her in Pennsylvania. I’m experiencing a lot of regret. Don’t get me wrong! I love my classes!! Yesterday, I did my Captain Spaulding makeup on myself and got to leave class 2 hours early. It turned out way better than I was expecting. However, once the weekend rolls around, I have nothing to do and I’m not confident enough in my driving and navigating skills here to go on adventures on my own.
Quite frankly, I don’t want to go on adventures on my own. I miss my friends so much. I hardly hear from them. My friends were supposed to Skype me from our usual saturday hangout but I doubt that’s going to happen.
I was talking to my dad earlier and I just couldn’t stop crying. I want to go home to California so badly but I can’t. I guess I could, but I would hate myself and feel like a failure forever but more importantly, I don’t want to let my dad down. The whole reason I came here was to get my degree. I can’t be the only person in my family without a college degree. I just can’t. I just cannot adequately express how much I miss California. Unless you were born and raised there and then moved away, I don’t think you’ll ever understand. California is the most special place on the earth, as far as I’m concerned. It will always be home.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I cry when ever I see, hear, or read anything regarding LA, especially Halloween in LA. It just sucks.
Will I ever get used to living here?
Or at the very least, will I ever get over the homesickness??