I know I’m always saying I want to/will blog more often but there’s a good reason as to why I haven’t been doing so lately. I am about two and a half weeks into this new job. Today will be my first day on the job without any supervision and I’m super anxious about it. Getting this job in general has caused a lot of anxiety and sadness for me. Not because it’s a difficult job or anything like that, but because it’s an “office job.” Ever since I was a child, I swore to myself that I would never get an “office job.” I am an artist. At the very core of my soul an artist is who I always have been, am, and always will be. I feel like by taking this job, especially while being trained for it over the past two and a half weeks, my art has suffered. I can’t recall the last time I’ve worn a full face of makeup or even just sat down to paint on canvas.
This job has even been affecting my energy levels while working out. I love working out. Getting in shape is so important to me that I even upped my workouts to 6 days a week with a trainer. I’m hoping now that I’m done with training for this job and my schedule will be my regular 2pm-9pm now, I’ll be able to maintain better energy levels for working out.
If I keep reminding myself that this is not a career; it’s just a job I have to take to make my dream come true, I think I’ll be ok. I’m too creative to stay stagnant for too long.