I haven’t been very active on social media at all lately. Due to my job, working out 12 times a week, and other personal issues I wish not to discuss publicly, I have been feeling very depressed and not really feeling the desire to socialize like I used to do. This time alone has given me the opportunity to reflect on myself and my life, and to figure out why I’ve been feeling this way.
I have been depressed simply because lately I have become a creative person who hasn’t had the time to create things. I used to paint, draw, and do my makeup everyday, but now I’m at a point where I’d rather take a nap than draw, or sleep in an extra hour in the morning before work instead of do a full face of makeup. I don’t enjoy being this person. It’s not me at all. I’m making the effort to change that. I’m trying to be more organized with my time so I actually have the time to be more creative. I’m trying to take care better of myself so I have more energy. I’m even reading a freaking self help book! (The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck by Mark Manson. 10/10 do recommend!) This book has taught me that suffering is inevitable. You need to prioritize your life so the suffering you endure is worthwhile. That is exactly what I’m trying to do.
Yes. In effort to address this lack of creativity, I will be posting on here. I’m not quite sure what direction these new posts will take. I’m thinking they’ll be some lush, some makeup, and just life in general type things.